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PROTECTORS ON VR17:42 Mar 25 2020
Times Read: 474
WHO ARE YOU REALLY PROTECTING BEHIND A KEYBROARD.I WALK ALONE IN THIS LIFE THOUGH I HAVE FAMILY AND FRIENDS.MY FAITH IS GOD WHO IS MY SHIELD AGAINST EVIL.THE STICKERS ON HERE SAY YOU BETTER NOT MESS WITH THIS ONE OR THAT ONE.HONESTLY ONCE YOU TURN YOUR PC IS OFF YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN.YOU CAN SUPPORT OTHERS THROUGH TEXT BUT THATS IT.THATS WHY I HAVE NONE OR GIVE ANY.BECAUSE ITS A JOKE.MY LIFE GOES ON IN THE REAL WORLD.OR THE GRAND ILLUSION OF THIS MORTAL LIFE.WE ARE SPIRIT OR ENERGY WHICH IS THE SOUL.THE FLESH DIES AND WE LEAVE THE MORTAL OR MATERIAL LIFE BEHIND AND PASS THROUGH INTO THE ENLIGHTENED ONE.WE CAME INTO THE FLESH AS SPIRIT AND SO MAY WE LEAVE THE SAME WAY.YOUR MORTAL LIFE IS TEMPORARY.EVERYTHING REMAINS BEHIND YOU OWN NOTHING.GOD OWNS IT ALL.YOU ARE ONLY HERE TO BORROW.THATS WHY ITS BETTER TO GIVE THAN RECIVE.HOADERS MAKE ME LAUGH THE MOST.THEY COLLECT EVERYTHING IN THERE HOME TO THE HILT,THEY LIVE IN HORRENDOUS CONDITIONS,SOME MAY EVEN LOSE THERE HOMES HOLDING ON TO THINGS THAT WHEN THEY DIE WILL LOSE IT ALL ANYWAY.THEY CAN'T LET GO OF NOTHING.WHEN ITS ALL NOTHING ANYWAY.PEOPLE WHO STEAL ARE BLIND TO THIS FACT AS WELL.SO WHEN THEY STEAL OTHERS PROPERTY THEY IN THERE SMALL MINDS THINK THEY GOT AWAY SCOTT FREE.WHEN IN REALITY THERE GETTING THERE REWARD NOW.WHILE THE DEVIL WAITS FOR THERE SOUL.THEY SHALL NOT INHERIT THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN.AND WHEN THERE FLESH DIES EVERYTHING THAT THEY STOLE REMAINS IN THE MATERIAL WORLD.SO THEY HAVE NOTHING NOT EVEN THERE SOUL.YOU ARE ONLY HERE TO LEARN.AND REMEMBER NO ONE NOT EVEN ME HAS A RIGHT TO JUDGE OTHERS.YOUR OPINIONS AND HATE HAVE LITTLE SAY AGAINST YOUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS.ONLY GOD AND GOD ALONE WILL JUDGE YOU.NO ONE MAKES A DIFFERANCE.WERE ALL SINNERS.AND THERES NO WAY A SINNER CAN JUDGE ANOTHER SINNER.YET OTHER SINNERS OR SHOULD I SAY HYPOCRITES ALWAYS DO.Namaste
QUOTE:19:05 Mar 20 2020
Times Read: 492
''FALSE LOVE CAN BE BOUGHT,TRUE LOVE IS PRICELESS''
DEATH21:49 Mar 18 2020
Times Read: 509
DEATH THE ONE SUBJECT NO ONE EVER TALKS ABOUT.FOR ME WHEN MOM DIED IT RIPS MY HEART AND CONSCIENCE OUT EVERYTIME.WHAT I SHOULD HAVE DONE,COULD HAVE DONE AND NOT WHAT I HAVE DONE.IT'S VERY COMPLEX FOR ME.AND TOO ME.IT ALL STARTED ON JANUARY 25 IN THE MORNING IN 2020.HER SPIRITS THE DAY BEFORE WERE GOOD.I WOKE EARLY TO HAVE THE PERKED COFFEE FOR HER BREWED UP WITH HER BREAKFAST ALREADY TO GO WHEN SHE CAME DOWN THE THREE STEPS FROM THE SECOND FLOOR TO THE LIVINGROOM TO THE KITCHEN.BUT SHE SLEPT A LITTLE LATER SO I HAD MINE FIRST WHICH I LIKED EVERY NOW AND THEN.THEN I HEAR HER YELL OUT TO ME SO I WENT TO HER BEDROOM AND SHE COULD NOT STAND-UP TO GET TO HER WALKER.SO I HELPED HER UP BUT THEN FELL ON THE BED IN EXTREME PAIN.HER LEFT LEG COULD NO LONGER SUPPORT HER AT ALL AND IT HURT.SO I LIFTED HER UP WRAPPED MY ARMS AROUND HER AND SLOWLY WALKED HER TO THE BATHROOM.WHEN SHE WAS DONE I DID THE SAME THING AND BROUGHT HER BACK TO THE BEDROOM WHERE I SERVED HER BREAKFAST IN BED.WHEN SHE WAS DONE I SAID YOUR GOING TO THE HOSPITAL AND SHE REPLIED NO I DON'T WANT TO GO.SO I CALLED MY COUSIN WHO IS A DOCTOR AND TOLD HIM OF MY SITUATION AND HE SPOKE TO MOM AND NOW SHE WAS GOING.THE AMBULANCE WOULD COME TO PICK HER UP AND THAT WAS THE BEGINNING TO ALL OF IT. I LIVE WITH THIS DECISION AND REGRET FOREVER.MY FIRST REGRET WAS MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE WAITED A COUPLE OF DAYS INSTEAD OF MAKING THE DECISION ON SENDING HER TO THE HOSPITAL THE SAME DAY.SHE WOULD BE IN THAT PLACE FOR A MONTH WHERE SHE GOT WORSE NOT BETTER.MY COUSIN THANK GOD FOR HIM KEPT ME INFORMED OF WHAT THE OTHER DOCTORS FOUND IN SIMPLE TERMS WHICH HELPED ME ALOT.THE LAST TWO WEEKS MOM WAS IN SUCH PAIN IN HER LEFT LEG SHE KEPT SAYING SHE WANTED TO DIE,THATS HOW BAD THE PAIN WAS.SO I GOT THEM TO GIVE HER SMALL DOSES OF MORPHINE.AND THATS WHEN MY OTHER REGRETS STARTED.MY DOCTOR COUSIN WANTED TO GIVE HER MORE BUT I HAD TO OK IT.FOR ME SHE WAS FINE THEN BECAUSE AT LEAST SHE COULD TALK AND COMUNICATE.BUT HER PAIN WAS COMING BACK AND SHE WOULD MOAN SO I OK'D IT,BUT THAT MORPHINE ONLY MADE HER TOTALLY OUT OF IT SHE COULD NOT TALK AT ALL HER MOUTH WAS OPEN EYES HALF OPEN AND THIS JUST STRUCK AT MY MIND AND CONSCIENCE AGAIN.MOM WAS SUFFERING NOT IN PAIN BUT BEING IN TOTAL UNAWARENESS OF ALL THAT WAS GOING ON.THE LAST WEEK WAS MY TOTAL REGRET.WHEN MY DOCTOR COUSIN SAID LETS REMOVE HER FROM LIFE SUPPORT.THAT RIPPED MY HEART OUT.I SAID OK.THAT MEANS DEATH WILL COME WITHIN THREE DAYS IN MOMS CASE SHE LASTED FIVE.NO WATER NO FOOD NO MEDS.I FIND THIS SO CRUEL.MY COUSIN SAID ITS BETTER TO LET HER GO THEN PROLONG THIS FOREVER.AND SO THE CALL CAME FEBUARY 28 IN THE MORNING THAT SHE PASSED ON.MY REGRETS WERE THAT I LISTENED TO MY COUSIN AND MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE NOT LISTENED TO HIM AT ALL.I BEAT MYSELF UP ON THESE REGRETS.DID I DO THE RIGHT THING ? ,COULD HAVE I DONE IT DIFFERANT.WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEBODY WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND SOUL THOSE REGRETS TEAR AT YOUR TOTAL BEING ALL THE TIME.YES I KNOW MY MOM WAS 99 YEARS OF AGE GOING ON 100 WITHIN 3 WEEKS.I'D GIVE IT ALL BACK JUST TO HAVE HER BACK.I HAD NO LIFE TAKING CARE OF HER AND WOULD BITCH ABOUT IT.NOW I WISH I COULD GO BACK AND CHANGE IT ALL JUST TO HAVE HER BACK WITH ME AGAIN.I KNOW IN SPIRIT SHE WATCHES ME.BUT ITS NOT THE SAME THING.THAT MORNING BEFORE I HEARD THE CALL THAT SHE PASSED.I SWEAR I COULD HEAR HER CALLING ME LOUD AND CLEAR.BUT I SHRUGGED IT OFF BECAUSE I KNEW SHE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL.OR WAS SHE.Peace
''TELL THE TRUTH SHAME THE DEVIL''17:04 Mar 17 2020
Times Read: 522
YOU NEED NOT LIE IF YOU TELL THE TRUTH,IF YOU TELL THE TRUTH YOU WILL REMEMBER EVERYTHING.PEOPLE WHO LIE SOMETIMES FORGET WHAT THEY SAY,THEY NEED TO MAKE THINGS UP AS THEY GO.IF YOU LIE TO ME I WILL REMEMBER EVERYTHING YOU SAID TO ME.PEOPLE WHO LIE FORGET WHAT THEY TOLD YOU AND THINK YOUR FOOLISH NOT TO REMEMBER WHAT THEY'VE SAID IN THE PAST.THEY CHANGE THERE STORIES LIKE THE WIND BLOWS.I JUST LOOK AT THEM KNOWING HOW PHONY THEY ARE.I TEND TO KEEP MY DISTANCE FROM FAKERS.BEING AN EMPATH I KNOW AND CAN TELL A DISHONEST PERSON FROM THE GOOD ONES.SOMETIMES I SLIP UP YES.BUT MOST OF THE TIME NO.I DISLIKE PHONY PEOPLE.THATS ON THEM NOT ME.Peace
SILENCE IS POWER20:11 Mar 14 2020
Times Read: 550
THE QUIETEST MAN IN THE ROOM IS THE MOST LETHAL,MOST INTELLIGENT AND POWERFUL ONE IN THE ROOM.WHY ? BECAUSE HE OBSERVES EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING THAT IS SPOKEN.HE DOES NOT FORGET.AND THE LOUDEST MAN IN THE ROOM IS THE FOOL BECAUSE HE ACTS LIKE A COURT JESTER AND WANTS EVERYONE TO SEE AND KNOW HIM,HE WANTS TO BE THE CENTER OF ATTENTION.I KNOW MANY PEOPLE LIKE HIM.THEY SAY THEY HAVE MANY MANY FRIENDS YET ARE TRUE FOOLS.BECAUSE WHEN THESE FRIENDS HE CLAIMS TO HAVE ARE NEVER AROUND FOR HIM.THINKING ONE HAS MANY FRIENDS IS FOOLISH,HAVING TOO MANY YOU DON'T KNOW WHO THE BACKSTABBERS FROM WHO THE GOOD ONES ARE.A WISE MAN HAS TWO OR THREE FRIENDS NOT MANY,AND THERE LIKE BROTHER,S TO HIM.IV'E ALWAYS HAVE BEEN THE QUIETEST MAN.MY FAMILY THOUGHT I KNEW LITTLE BUT NOW THEY TELL ME THEY WERE WRONG.I ALWAYS KNEW.SO NEVER JUDGE ANYONE,YOU NEVER KNOW.Namaste
GRAND ILLUSION16:05 Mar 11 2020
Times Read: 571
MY MOM PASSED ON 2/28/2020,I WENT THROUGH SO MUCH IN HER LAST DAYS.A COUSIN WAS STEALING MY MOMS JEWLERY WHILE SHE TOOK CARE OF HER WHILE IN MY HOME.SHE EVEN STOLE ALL OF MOMS CLOTHES INCLUDING THE ONE MOM CHOSE THAT SHE WAS TO BE BURIED IN.SO WHILE MY MOM WAS IN THE HOSPITAL I BANNED HER FROM SEEING HER AND REPORTED HER TO THE POLICE.THOUGH OF COURSE SHE DENIED IT.AFTER I REPORTED IT TO THE POLICE THE SAME DAY SHE HAD KEYS TO MY HOUSE AND CAR WHICH SHE HAD COPIED.I DID HOWEVER CHANGED ALL THE LOCKS TO MY HOME MYSELF WITH NEW ONES.THREE DAYS BEFORE MOM PASSED SHE GOT INTO MY CAR AND LEFT MY CAR LIGHTS ON AND PUT ALL STATIONS ON ONE STATION WHICH WAS A GOSPEL ONE.I CALLED GEICO LOST ONE HOUR BUT ARRIVED ON TIME TO THE HOSPITAL TO COMFORT MY MOM.I WAS IN THAT HOSIPTAL FROM 1/25/20 TO 2/27/20.EVERY SINGLE DAY.NOT ONLY WAS IN MOURNING AFTER MOM PASSED ON BY MY FEMALE COUSIN HAD GOT TO MY CELL PHONE AND WAS TRACKING ME AND LISTENING TO ALL MY CONVERSATIONS IN MY TEXTS.AND KNEW WHERE I WAS ALL THE TIME.THIS COUSIN IS A SICK TWISTED NUT JOB WITH NOTHING BUT EVIL INTENT IN HER HEART.WHILING PRAISING GOD.YOU CAN'T HOLD HANDS WITH THE DEVIL DOING EVIL UNTO OTHERS WHILE PRAISING GOD.IT JUST DON'T WORK.THE WHOLE FAMILY WANTS NOTHING TO DO WITH HER, NOBODY, INCLUDING ME.IF YOU DON'T HAVE FAMILY YOU HAVE NOTHING.SHE SOLD HER SOUL A LONG TIME AGO AS I HAVE HEARD OTHER STORIES ABOUT HER AND ABOUT HER STEALING FROM OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS.SHES A HOARDER AND A UNSTABLE INSANE WOMAN WHO NEEDS HELP.TRADING YOUR SOUL FOR A FEW GOLD AND SILVER PIECES OF JEWELRY WORTH ABOT EIGHT HUNDRED DOLLERS IS NOT WORTH HER FINAL JUDGEMENT BEFORE GOD.ALL THE MATERIAL THINGS SHE STEALS STAYS BEHIND AN ILLUSION.SO IN THE END OF HER LIFE SHE REALLY IN REALITY HAS NOTHING.NOT EVEN HER SOUL WHICH NOW BELONGS TO THE DEVIL.EVERYTHING SHE DOES AS US AS WELL WE WILL ALL ANSWER FOR BEFORE GOD FOR OUR DEEDS GOOD AND BAD.THERE IS NO ESCAPE FROM YOUR FINAL JUDGEMENT BEFORE GOD.CHOOSE WISELY IN THIS GRAND ILLUSION OF LIFE.Namaste
LOVE14:43 Mar 01 2020
Times Read: 593
LOVE CAN'T BE BOUGHT OR SOLD.ONLY GIVIN.
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